note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Mmm that is SUCH a beautiful picture. I love how you explained why that's the picture you chose...I often think, "How incredibly cool would it be if Jesus was a big fluffy, huggable lion??" But then I realize, He's going to be so much greater than we can ever imagine :)
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~Lauren :)
You really need to stop being so inspiring. I'm not sure how much more I can take, Sweet Skylee!! ;-) No, I kid, keep on inspiring me. That picture makes me want to cry, I love it so much. Thank you for sharing. <3
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~Half-Pint
Sweet picture! Very beautiful. ♥ xo.
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