note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Amen to the Reese's! One of the best candies in the world :)
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I am so with you on the dark chocolate-milk chocolate thing! I LOVE dark chocolate, not so much milk chocolate.
ReplyDeleteAnd POTATO CHIPS! Don't even get me started on those... I could eat like 5 bags in one sitting. Yum. :)
Three cheers for dark chocolate! The only kind of chocolate I like too. ;) We're cool like that.
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