note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Now you made me want the beach!! ;)
ReplyDeleteI think you'd really like the beach, its so pretty in the morning, especially taking walks. But remember that when you go you should bring a jacket, because the mornings are cold by the water! :)
Ooh, fun Sky dear!! :)
ReplyDeleteI LOVE the beach. My family and I go at least once or twice per Summer, but, as iGirl said, it does get awfully chilly with the wind coming off the water. :P
How sad is this: I live in CA, yet have never been to Disneyland. :P
Love and Hugs, NW sister,
Lia