note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
Three cheers for Penelope! Actually, when I first watched it I wasn't as quick to fall in love with it as you were. I had to watch it once, or twice again before I was willing to admit I was in love. ;)
ReplyDeleteI love that movie! The acting is so good, and I think Reese Witherspoon did a superb job in it! :)
ReplyDeleteI love that movie too! I think I'm the only one in my family who watched the whole thing, but it's just so cute! One of those that's unexpectedly lovable. :)
ReplyDeleteLet me see, Third Day is a close second for favorite band/artist for me. I mostly listen to KLove/Air1 since all our other local stations are 98% commercial. It's kinda sad really.... ;) Rascal Flatts is a country band that I like, though I haven't really listened to anything new by them. Diamond Rio is probably my alltime favorite in country though. There are a few others I like, but I can't remember names right now. You?
Ah, Tormin....he's definitely a favorite. He does a lot of thinking throughout the story, and that's entertaining a lot of the time.
Torin is a nice name. It sounds like it belongs to an intriguing character. :)
Thanks! I only started writing plot summaries a few months back, I think. I was telling people, "Well, this story has so and so, and they do this and that..." and then I realized that I wasn't really telling anything about the story. It's a challenge though; I think it's hardest because there are so many events in the stories that I'd like to surprise people with rather than have them know everything right from the start.
Fight for the Throne and A Time of Secrets are the first things I really focused on, and looking back over some of my other stuff, it's obvious. I have a ton of notebooks though that one day hopefully will have finished stories in them. Several are ideas I want to tweak and get back to.
My main bad "habit" about blogging is that I'll have a post idea in my head, and by the time I click to write it, it's gone. On one I think my longest break was 3 months. It's weird how you can be super busy and yet have nothing going on at the same time. :P
For some covers, I used Paintnet. (It's a free program.) I got PaintShop Photo Prox3 for Christmas though, and it's mostly what I use now. Paintnet is a lot like it though.
~ Chy
That movie made me cry too! :D SUch a great choice. :)
ReplyDeleteSounds cute! I've never heard of it before, strangely.
ReplyDeleteI love that movie so much! I love Penelope's outfits, and her bedroom with the swing and terrariums. Such cool designs!
ReplyDeleteBest scene in the whole movie: when Max is singing "you are my sunshine". I laugh every time!!