note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
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ReplyDeleteYour sentiments are duly noted, and I concur.
ReplyDelete(In other words, I understand exactly what you mean, and I agree. :P)
Ok, this got me a little more excited about the upcoming event. Now I just need a plot...
ReplyDelete^ You and me both... :-/ That's one thing I currently DON'T like about NaNo: my lack of a plot! :P
ReplyDelete#4 and #5. So very true. I didn't do Word Wars last year, but I did stumble across Write or Die, which I didn't use for NaNo, but makes for good writing just to get started on things.
ReplyDeleteI'm on the site, but unable to send requests yet. I'll send one as soon as it'll let me though.
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~ Chy
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes and YES. (extra emphasis on the coffee)
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ReplyDelete♥Samarah
and yes, when i get dreadlocks i'll post photos ;D