on the power of showing up
note: I wrote this post in April of 2019 (pre-COVID). It's been sitting in my drafts for quite a while, but I think it's time for it to see the light of day. It's been helpful for me to reread over the past few months, especially as I continue to try to make an effort to write, and I hope it can be helpful to you, too. i got an invite to a writers' group a few months ago, and i had never felt like more of a fraud in my life. it had been months, if not years, since i'd felt like a writer. the proverbial well of words in my heart had dried up, it seemed, and i wasn't sure if it was ever coming back. i agreed to go out of a sense of helplessness—i'd identified as a writer ever since i could remember. if i'm not a writer, who am i? i told myself that it was important to show up and act like a writer even when i didn't feel like one, because even though i hadn't been writing, i reassured myself, i still was a writer. but sometimes the words f
sounds nice :) especially the chilling and watching tv part ;) just kidding... I love the spending time with a friend and guitar part! =) today, I... only got a teeny tiny bit of school done and ate gluten filled food :( ugh :/ but I just got done working out! trying to get back on the right road... :)
ReplyDeletethinking and praying for you soul sista!
♥Samarah
Haha. :) sounds lovely.
ReplyDeleteMe? Going to go find something to eat, and then work on my room.
xx,
Bleah