note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
*cracks up* That was unexpected! Wow. That's funny, I don't like swishing my milk, but I'll swish my water sometimes. :-)
ReplyDeleteLove,
~Half-Pint
Haha, that's pretty neat!!!!! I don't usually do that...unless I take a sip of water before bed. I dunno why....*winks* We all have some pretty weird quirks, I guess!!!!
ReplyDelete~Lily
Ahh! That's so random! Milk kindof grosses me out, therefore your confession kindof grosses me out, haha! But if it were anything else besides milk I wouldn't be grossed out. Then it's just funny and random :D
ReplyDelete~Lauren :)
Haha!! That's pretty funny! I wasn't thinking you were going to put anything like that :) I drink almost everything through a straw and/or with ice.
ReplyDeleteLove,
iGirl
haha!! I do that with soda, always! =D xo.
ReplyDeleteAre you serious?! I don't normally drink milk, but when I do, I swish it! :D
ReplyDeleteSwishing it makes it more fun to drink. Especially when it's chocolate milk. Mm... All those little bubbles of chocolate syrup...
Love and Hugs!
Lia
PS: I think I'm going to call you Skylie. :) A combination of all the names I know you by. Oh, and we should have some bacon... Lovely, crunchablely delicious bacon... Mmm.... :)