note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Wow. Okay. Wow. I seriously did NOT see that one coming. Uh, wow. Erm. Wow. Yeah. Wow.
ReplyDeleteWow.
*wanders off in dazed shock*
My little sister, my cousin and I watched it on New Year's but didn't catch the whole movie. We were really really hyper though, so that made it even more fun! I liked the first one, and what I've seen of the second one.
ReplyDeleteOh, and in case I missed commenting on the post with your song—amazing! You're really talented!
~ Chy
Ha, I never saw the second one, though I actually did like the first one!!! I much prefer Demi Lovato with those bangs. (:
ReplyDelete~Lily
Uh oh. Now I need to see this movie. :) That song is adorable, and thanks to the 25th anniversary of the Les Miserables musical, I love Nick Jonas. :)
ReplyDeleteI definitely love a good "cotton candy" movie, too... recently, I have been indulging in High School Musical. <3
Oh yeah, and I actually do kinda like Nick J's voice. *nervous giggle*
ReplyDeleteI love that song!! I remember watching Camp Rock 2 when I had cold sores in my eyes and I couldn't even see anything in the competition part! :)
ReplyDeleteActually, that's not too unexpected. I don't know what I wouldn't have expected from you... probably a really intense drama or something :)
Haha! You were the only person who actually got the Monsters Inc./Dr. Quinn comic:) Had you ever noticed that they had the same names before?
ReplyDeleteAh! I don't know how I missed seeing this post!
ReplyDeleteAnyways, I'm not much of a Camp Rock person, but that song was simply the most adorable thing EVER! I loved it so much :D
And thank YOU for all your sweet comments, girl! They definitely make my day happier ;)
~Lauren :)