note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Cool! That sounds like a recipe that I could make :)
ReplyDeleteAh! Sounds like a fun recipe! Especially the Chipotle part! I was thinking today that I would really like to go to Chipotle with you again. <3
ReplyDeleteBest. Recipe. Ever. ;) I have to admit that I've never eaten at Chipotle before. Lame. I know. ;) I will eat there one day...
ReplyDeleteAh-ha! Sounds like an amazing recipe, I will have to try this!! =D xo.
ReplyDeleteLovely recipe! ;)
ReplyDelete(by the way, what is Chipotle?! I've never heard of it....)
I *fricken* love polyvore. But I'm not that good... YET. :P
ReplyDeleteBut I'm learning, bet one day I'll be as good as you!
You bough BOTH CD's?!?! I'm sooo jealous. I have a copy of ocean eyes but I'd love to have the whole thing.
I also had a copy of the Birds and the bEes sides... on my MP3. Before it crashed. Now I don't. :P
Oh well... lucky you! I'm sure you'll enjoy it.
Jefferson Aeroplane (though i'm not sure how they spell the latter word on the CD, that's how I spell it) is one of my favorite along with a couple others that are more serious and make me cry. *sigh* I miss that CD! Tell me what you think. :)
xx,
Bleah Briann
It's xobleahbriann :) what's yours.
ReplyDeleteyess... e-mail me soon. Commenting is just so... public. :P
xx,
Bleah
I LOVE YOUR RECIPE. Totally cute idea. =)
ReplyDeleteBy the way... your new template design is lovely! I like it.