note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
I'm not normally one for overly Christian music, but this is lovely.
ReplyDeleteThank you for the happy feels :)
Aw, I'm really glad you enjoyed it! Yes, I relate as well. Some Christian music really gets on my nerves, for reasons too numerous to list here. But I love songs like these, that cut past all the meaningless religion and extra "fluff", that state the simple truth of God's love, and truly reach the core of who I am and who God is. Those are the songs that really touch my heart.
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Ahh I love this song, it is definitely one of my favourite hymns! Getty, yes?
ReplyDeleteMmhmm! At least, I believe the song was written by Getty. Owl City's version is a cover, and it's probably my favorite version, though I certainly don't mind others. I particularly love the lyrics, so other versions are a-okay by me, but Owl City placed a beautiful spin on it that I can't find anywhere else.
DeleteAh, here we go. Wikipedia states that it was written by Keith Getty & Stuart Townend. :)
Thank you so much for the comment! ♥
I love that song. Have you ever heard, "You are My All in All"? I think you'd like it.
ReplyDeleteIndeed I have! And you are correct, I do like it! I was practically raised with that song; I remember singing it and listening to it with my mom many times. I haven't heard it in a while but I still do love it. It's beautiful.
DeleteI love this song! It's so beautiful! <3
ReplyDeleteI love it too. :D Thanks for the comment! <3
DeleteOh! Sky! I have to agree that this song has helped me so many times.
ReplyDeleteI think it was last month that I was really struggling with some internal stuff.
I went out to the barn to feed my animal and started singing hymns. This one came to mind and as I sang it I just overflowed with joy and tears. It is so powerful.
Ellyn! Thank you for commenting, it really did make my day.
DeleteI love that story. ♥ Thank you for being open and willing to share it with me! My favorite part is that it took place in a barn. It reminds me that God often speaks in the humblest and most vulnerable of places. That strikes me as quite symbolic.
I too struggle with lots of internal stuff, especially lately, and so this song has really helped speak to me and heal my heart. It's beautiful, and, like you said, so powerful. I love it.
Never ever ever. No matter how inconstant and changeable we are.
ReplyDeleteBlessing, hugs, and love to you, my dear.
Aw, thank you, my Katie-dear. You are marvelous.
DeleteThank you for reminding me of that; it's something I always need to hear, no matter how happy or sad I am.
Never. Ever. Ever. ♥
Hugs and love to you, too. This comment means the world to me, as well as your friendship and support.
Ahhhhh... I love this song. One of my favorites definitely. :)
ReplyDelete--Lia
Indeed, I do concur. And this, my dear Lia, is one of the many reasons why we are friends! Miss you, girly! *love and hugs*
DeleteI feel the exact same way about this song. I'm constantly playing it over and over when I'm struggling through something. And it never seems to fail to get me teary-eyed. It's so beautiful with such powerful lyrics.
ReplyDelete"My Comforter, my All-in-all ." Jesus truly is.
Ditto, ditto, ditto. The teary-eyed part especially. This blog post was written about a month ago, but I decided to publish it after a pretty rough day. I just sat there, listening to In Christ Alone, and let the words rush over me, and then slightly edited & published this blog post. It was truly beautiful.
DeleteYes. Yes, He is. ♥ Thank you for reminding me of that fact.
By the way, I got your email! Thank you so, so much. I truly appreciate it! I'll try to respond asap.
I love this song too. :) It's so beautiful and reassuring.
ReplyDeleteIndeed. ♥
DeleteI love this song. It's great. And I have a question: is Owl City a Christian band? I wasn't aware of them.
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Oh yes, I'm glad you asked! Owl City, while not under a Christian label, is a Christian, and writes lyrics with Christian influences. Similar to bands like Switchfoot and U2. His name is Adam Young, though he performs under the stage name Owl City.
DeleteHe's one of my absolute favorite artists, so let me know if you have any more questions, since I love educating people about him & spreading the word about his music. And here's the link to his Wikipedia article, if you're interested.
Thank you for the award! :D
I love this song so much. So lovely, and so full of so much truth. One of my all time favourites.
ReplyDeleteOh yes, ditto. Lovely & full of truth -- exactly. I agree completely, and thank you for echoing my thoughts for the subject.
DeleteThank you for the comment!
This song is lovely, and one of my favourite. Thank you for sharing.
ReplyDeleteGod bless.
~Joy @ joy-live4jesus.blogspot.com
Thank you for stopping by! Blessings to you too! :)
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