note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Ireland? YES PLEASE 8D That's a really cool set! I looove the necklace.
ReplyDeleteCeltic Thunder = Pure Amazingness. My sister and I watched their little Christmas concert-thingy on PBS this Christmas Eve... It was lovely. ^.^
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i'm currently in love with ireland. have you ever seen the movie "once"? it had the most beautiful music. a character in my book is actually irish, so hey, maybe a trip to ireland would help me understand her better. ;)
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