note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
These are really good prompts, and even though I may not be blogging them, they are helping me in my writing in general. Who knew that I had only the basic "haiircolor, eyecolor, and smile" for my MC. I need DETAIL! XD
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad this is helping you, Laura! Thanks for joining in! Detail is VERY important. XD
DeleteI maaay have forgotten to join in last week but I am this time! LOVE the prompt this week, by the way. There's nothing I love more than describing my characters! =)
ReplyDeleteThanks for linking up, Shay! It's so awesome to have you. Describing characters is really hard for me, but it's the BEST. And for whatever reason, it feels super rewarding when you get that description just right. Thanks for stopping by!
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