note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Yay! Beautiful People! I really do hope you guys host the linkup again. And a lot of fun listening to the vlogs. :)
ReplyDeleteAh, your vlog quality is so much better than mine! Hehe, I think I have camera envy. Great vlogs, by the way! So nice to put names to faces :)
ReplyDeleteYayyyz! I finally get to hear Sky's VOICE!! And you two are so funny - definitely get together again to make more vlogs. ;)
ReplyDelete"I feel like I'm its....aunt." :D
About what you were saying about your other novels being 'trash' - well, first of all they're not but I know what you mean, as I have novels like that too. But anyways, I heard somewhere that usually you have to write two novels before you get anything worth publishing, like "Silver Tears." So I think that's a normal thing. It has been for me - I wrote two dumb novels and then got "Torn Heart" which I self-published.
I did Nano last year for the first time. I had always been skeptical of it but I took the plunge and I am so glad I did! It was one of the most fun things I have ever done - and I did win. *phew* Favorite character was my FMC, Dust, who's just this sweet, gentle, rather ditzy girl who is still tough at the same time...she sticks out like a sore thumb in the place where she lives.
Again, I loved your vlog.
Awww! This was fun. I enjoyed it, guys! ^__^
ReplyDeleteI always loved doing Beautiful People but gracious do I understand being too busy for it, so whatever you guys do I'm perfectly okay with.
I'm still in shock NaNo is just in...4 days now? O_O I have an outline and everything but still...NaNo came SO FAST.
Good luck to both of you!! <3