note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Ahh, Viggo. If I didn't have a sweet boyfriend, I'd be wishing he was my Valentine, too!
ReplyDelete*dribbles all over her laptop at the pictures* Damn, why do all the adorable ones (both fictional and real) have to be taken! And your invisible valentine sounds pretty freakin' epic ... space for a wee third wheel over here? ;)
ReplyDeleteAs for Valentines Day ... bah! Everybody should treat their other halves' nicely every day, if you ask me. Though the occasional cute moment on special days is definitely encouraged. Not that I would know *facepalm*
I ask myself that question all the time. ;) As for the third wheel thing, you're more than welcome. As far as I know, He takes more hearts everyday. :)
DeleteAgreed. Not really sure what the point of Valentine's Day is anyway... :P
How odd, I believe my valentine is just like yours! Does your valentine heal sick and injured bodies and hearts? And is he a prince on high? ;)
ReplyDeleteI agree, He is a pretty awesome valentine. :)
ReplyDeletei love this!! :)
ReplyDelete♥Samarah
i'm so glad that He takes numerous valentines (:
ReplyDeleteHappy (late) Valentine's Day!
ReplyDelete(And isn't He the best valentine?)
~Keaghan
Ahaha =) Personally, I think you got the best Valentine ^^
ReplyDeleteAlthough having Aragorn or Robin Hood as a Valentine would be awesome =D
Could not agree more.
DeleteHee, hee. Happy Valentine's Day, my dear. ^.^
ReplyDelete(And if you get the BBC Robin Hood, I get the BBC Arthur. Just sayin'.)
Thanks, you too! :)
DeleteI. Love. The. BBC. Arthur. *is now conflicted* Such a hard choice... :P
Btw, I shared your comment with Georgie, and this sparked an entire conversation between us about Lancelot and Arthur and Gwen. ;) It was pretty amusing, especially when I actually called Lancelot "Lancelog" instead. :P
Ahem. I believe you forgot a certain Mr. Swoosh? ;)
ReplyDeleteAnd He's the best. The competition doesn't even come close. (No man on earth can give you a sunset for Valentine's like He can.)
Oh man! I knew I was forgetting someone! XD Don't worry, Gwaine, you can be my valentine next year. :D
DeleteAw, that is so sweet, and so very true. I'm so thankful for Him... and His sunsets.
Love this!! Your tweet is pretty sweet. :)
ReplyDeleteAaaand Messy Mondays? YES. Have you seen the homeschool one?? Best. Video. Ever.