note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Haha, this made me laugh. :)
ReplyDeleteYeah, sometimes it's really frustrated how staged things are. :P
I personally don't like Toby Mac all that much. :) I really love some of his songs, but not so much other ones. But I'd still definitely react if i saw him. Not just walk by like nothing's happening. :P
But Tenth Avenue North... :D I'd scream if I saw them. Like, SO loud. :P
Becca
Lol, that's funny. ;) <3
ReplyDeleteHaha, I'd probably freak out if I saw Tobymac walking down the street. His hat is so cool. :-D *fangirl*
ReplyDeleteBy the way, hon, that song really encouraged me right when I needed it most. Thank you so much for sharing. <3
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~Half-Pint
^ haha, i would be too! i looovvveee tobymac. one of my friends got to meet him - i was so envious:)
ReplyDeleteblessings always,
anna :)
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ReplyDeleteOoo! I like TobyMac also!
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(The Link)
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