note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Two years ago, I read it in a day in a half/two days.
ReplyDeleteI remember being captivated by it. I feel a re-read coming on...
I want to try this book! I'm terrible with classics though...my brain likes to speed-read and if I do that in classics I miss waaaay too much. Still. Anyone who describes the ceiling as cake is awesome.
ReplyDeleteWow. Ceiling as cake? I don't suppose Peeta Mellark did the decorating...?
ReplyDeleteIf you like the book, you will really like the new movie!
ReplyDeleteHe does kind of look like Tom Hiddleston, doesn't he? lol
Hi MountainFireFlower, Gatsby was really very good, the end kinda threw me however, didn't know it was going to end that way. But very very good, well written. No wonder it's a classic!
ReplyDeleteI read this book in school, when I was 13, and truth be told, I HATED it. But I re-read it and now I can actually appreciate it, being older (and not forced to read it in school!)
ReplyDeleteI SO want to see the movie--I've heard it's really good!
Following your blog! :)
Rebecca Danielle Gregoire
(By the way, I used to follow your blog when I was younger, then stopped blogging, and you're my only blogging friend who's still at it! Which is really cool to see since I'm back at it now with a different blog)