note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Random NAZI should be added to our Tea Spitter's vocabulary. It should be used whenever someone is distracting us from our goal.
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ReplyDeleteI look forward to hearing how your NaNo went. ^_^ I cannot believe it's already over. November went by so quickly!
Thanks so much, Lauriloth! Good to hear from you. Your comment made me smile.
DeleteIndeed! It did go by very fast. I look forward to posting about my NaNo! Did you end up doing it yourself as well?
I did do NaNo, indeed. ^_^ I had a wonderful one! Still scrambling around trying to actually finish my novel though. Hoping to have it done by New Year's...hopefully. Eheh.
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