note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Yay! Made my day when I saw this was up - I'll be back to do this soon!
ReplyDeleteAnd consequently it made my day that it made your day! Er... wait. That's confusing.
DeleteIs it okay to make this interview for more than one of my characters?
ReplyDeleteHi Joy! Yes, it is definitely okay -- thank you for asking! Actually, I was considering doing this for more than one of my characters myself. ;) Feel free to do whatever you wish.
DeleteHi Sky,
ReplyDeleteOh thanks so much for your encouraging comment on my blog, and I'm glad I can do Beautiful People for more than one of my characters =D. I've been writing up a character profile post first, since none of my readers no who my characters are, and then I'll Lord willing do the BP posts =D.
In His love,
~Joy
Oops! I just realized I linked to my blog, not my specific post. I've fixed that! :D Thanks for hosting!
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