note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
I've had that song in my head all week long!
ReplyDeleteWill be praying you feel better!
~ Chy
love that song!! Ugh, I know how you are feeling :( Allergies have gotten me and family. Praying you feel better lovely!!
ReplyDelete♥Samarah
I love that song as well!
ReplyDeleteGet better soon- allergies are nasty. Claratin rules, though! :)
~ Julia
Ugh, same here with the allergies. They totally stink, I'll pray :)
ReplyDeleteI am really excited about their new CD. My favorite song is "Black Tattoo". :]
ReplyDeleteFM Static is pretty good! I found them back in the day! I think I was in High School! Love.
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