note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Yay! I'm writing the post on my blog now! These are amazing question, thank you so much! And also, my WIP in three words would have to be: Introverts. Zombies. Fandoms.
ReplyDeleteI linked! :) Although the themed BPs are fun, it's nice to have a normal one every once and a while. It leaves you more freedom in terms if the characters you choose, I think.
ReplyDeleteI HAVE TOO MANY WIPS OKAY HOLD ON:
High Fantasy WIP: Sorcery. Political intrigue.
Dystopian WIP: Angel. Anarchy. Epic-code-names (shhhh I used hyphens it's one word.)
Contemporary Fantasy WIP: Witches. Spirits. Covens.
Contemporary Art WIP: Graffiti. Friendship drama.
Steampunk WIP: Espionage. New Orleans.
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Linked! New at this, but totally enjoying it! Thanks for creating along with Cait such an awesome writing meme!
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