on the power of showing up
note: I wrote this post in April of 2019 (pre-COVID). It's been sitting in my drafts for quite a while, but I think it's time for it to see the light of day. It's been helpful for me to reread over the past few months, especially as I continue to try to make an effort to write, and I hope it can be helpful to you, too. i got an invite to a writers' group a few months ago, and i had never felt like more of a fraud in my life. it had been months, if not years, since i'd felt like a writer. the proverbial well of words in my heart had dried up, it seemed, and i wasn't sure if it was ever coming back. i agreed to go out of a sense of helplessness—i'd identified as a writer ever since i could remember. if i'm not a writer, who am i? i told myself that it was important to show up and act like a writer even when i didn't feel like one, because even though i hadn't been writing, i reassured myself, i still was a writer. but sometimes the words f
Sometimes Charlie Brown says things in the best way possible.
ReplyDeleteHope your Christmas is filled with peace and some joy, even in the midst of grief.
I completely agree. Thanks so much, Sunny. It really was. I hope you had a good Christmas, too. ♥
DeleteI've been sort of the same this year, and not just with Christmas. I feel like autumn and the Christmas season haven't had enough moments for me to stop and enjoy them.
ReplyDeleteI hope you have a wonderful Christmas, Sky!
I definitely understand what you mean. It's been similar for me, too. I'm sorry to hear you're feeling the same way. Life moves too fast sometimes. I hope 2016 moves a little slower so we can soak it in. :)
DeleteThanks so much, I did! I hope you did too!
I relate to Charlie Brown too. I've felt the same about the last few Christmases. Here's to hoping we both figure out a balance of happy and sad. (Because sad isn't all bad. Sometimes "Sad is happy for deep people" -Doctor Who)
ReplyDeleteMerry Christmas! :)
Ahhh, I love that quote. Very true and reassuring. Thank you for posting it! I hope we figure out that balance, too.
DeleteMerry belated Christmas! :)
I will be praying for you Sky.
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Thanks, Skye! I really appreciate it. :) Hope you had a good Christmas! ♥
DeleteOh, Sky! I am so, so sorry about your grandpa. I can't even imagine how hard that is right now. It breaks my heart you're having such a hard time.
ReplyDeleteI'm absolutely praying for you, sweet girl. Despite all the hardships, I hope tomorrow will be a beautiful day. *HUGS*
Thank you so, so much, Christine! I REALLY appreciate that. And I did have a beautiful day. I was able to enjoy myself despite the grief, so I'm really glad. Thank you so much for the prayers and well wishes. *HUGS BACK* ♥
DeleteChristmas is mixed with a lot happy and sad emotions too. *hugs* It's always a bittersweet time for me. Merry belated Christmas!
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I understand totally. Sorry to hear it's bittersweet. I hope you did manage to find some joy amidst the sadness. :) Thanks so much, and Merry belated Christmas right back atcha!
DeleteDecember 11th is a rough day in my family too, from the loss of a cousin. Hope you found some joy this Christmas anyway. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your cousin. That's never easy, and my heart goes out to you.
DeleteI did find some joy this Christmas--thank you so much. I hope you did too. :) ♥