note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Wowzers. I've actually never even heard of word wars before. I am an extremely competitive person, so I can see how motivating this would be. I want in!
ReplyDeleteThanks for commenting! It is extremely motivating. I love it, honestly. I'm glad I could introduce you to this awesome concept. We should word war sometime!
DeleteI've seen word wars happening before, and I've participated in one or two, but generally I find it doesn't really work for me -- for one, my writing time pretty much comes in splatters of 5 or so minutes between other tasks, so by the time I've found someone else, I'm not free any longer. I've tried Write or Die too, and it doesn't work because that red screen just makes my brain freeze up. Still, it seems like a really fun activity if it works for you, so go you!
ReplyDeleteThat makes sense! I often don't have a lot of time for them, either, so I totally understand that. When I do have time, they work very well for me. But if they don't work for you, I totally understand! You do you!
DeleteWord wars are so handy! My friends and I do ten minute sprints which are so helpful! My max is 547 in ten minutes. An hour is a bit long for me. :P But ten minute ones work awesomely. I found out about them from GTW. I'd never heard of them before that. XD
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They really are helpful! Yes, I've only done one sprint for an hour. I usually do better with shorter bursts of ten to fifteen minutes, like you. I forget where I first heard of word wars, but GTW was a great help in reminding me about them. I figured some people might not have heard of them, so I thought it might be a good idea to post about it in case it helps someone out there!
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