note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
I smiled so much when I read this because I do these things too :)
ReplyDeleteLove it! :D
ReplyDelete*raises hand* Me too! :)
ReplyDeleteWow, Skylie dear. That sounds just like me. I've done nearly all of those. :)
ReplyDelete*huggles*
--Lia
I love you :) You are awesome <3 Great post ;)
ReplyDeleteHaha, I think this post is amazing! Way to go! I especially liked the first two. ;)
ReplyDeleteI like Merlin too :D
ReplyDeleteGreat post, this was a super good idea. I can totally relate to a lot of those. :)
ReplyDeleteHugs!
iGirl
Hehe, I am so guilty of that... my conversations are almost all movie quotes or character-ness. XD
ReplyDeleteMERLIN!!:D:D Awww,Gwaine!I can't believe I forgot his name for a second!
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