note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
Yes, my dear Kylie. Yes, yes, yes. Life is a DANCE! And we are dancing with Christ! What a GLORIOUS thought! :)
ReplyDeleteLet's continue dancing, shall we?
Beautimous, Kylie! So true! I actually wrote a post about something similar a couple of years ago (similar, but not exactly the same). You can read it here.
ReplyDeleteYou are absolutely right...life IS a dance! A dance with our Savior! And no matter what strange twists our humanity takes us down, we're still in His arms! What a magnificent assurance!
Thank you for sharing this post with me!
--Abigail