note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Cool!!!
ReplyDeleteI'll tell you what to do next...post your story! (In small bits, that is...)
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Hi Kylie,
ReplyDeleteI've known about you for a while, like through Bluejane & Ashley's blogs. Occasionally I come and browse around...anyways, I guess this is your main blog currently. I've been reading through several of your posts. I think this is so awesome that you and Ashley have finished your book and such a high word count!! (well, to me it seems high because the highest I've done is 45k--which is not even a novel! At the time that I wrote that story, I didn't know that I was 5k away from a novel :)
Anyways, hopefully I'll be hanging around your blogs more often.
Hope you have a peaceful Sunday.
~ Tarissa