note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
I hope you feel better soon! We've missed you!
ReplyDelete(Excuse me that title pun is the BEST.)
ReplyDeleteAww, I'm sending hugs and good thoughts to you, Sky. <3 I'm sorry things are like this and I really hope the colds give you a break and the medication all settles down soon. You're truly amazing!! *sends hugs*
*tackle hugs* I HAVE MISSED YOU. I am sooooo sorry your health has been so rude to you lately! D: Ugh. That is the worst. I'm praying for you, girl. <3
ReplyDelete(And I'm actually in love with the title. I love puns. XD)
So glad you are feeling better. Who doesn't love a good pun.
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