note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Sounds good, an awkward situation though. :D
ReplyDeleteOh, I LOVE the sound of this! I'm very intrigued, especially by the relationship between Quin and Andie. Sounds dramatic (because how can there not be drama when families are together, especially for a wedding?) and a little heartbreaking. I feel like I really need to know if they're going to be okay, do they end up together? Do they at least learn to be friends again (I assume they were friends as well as in love?)? TELL ME MORE! Haha. =)
ReplyDeleteI'd read that!
ReplyDeleteAww this sounds super cute! <3
ReplyDeleteEllie | On the Other Side of Reality
Yesss awkward wedding shenanigans!
ReplyDeleteOooh, I dig it :) Very intriguing! I also love this prompt. But to be real, I have no idea how I'd put my book into a blurb. #strugglebus
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