note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
I am so doing this. I love the idea!
ReplyDeleteWell, it's a Sunday. So I'll go to church, probably go over to my parents'house to use the internet, get tired, go home, and nap or read. Basically my normal Sunday. Or I'll cook - I like to cook on Sunday afternoons. I've never felt the need to do anything for Valentine's Day - I've always been a really solitary girl! What about you?
ReplyDeleteI did the BP, and here's the link if you want to check it out: http://rlhendrian.blogspot.com/2016/02/beautiful-people-in-which-we-pretend-i.html
For Valentine's Day, my sister and I are going to be doing a blind date with a book. We're each going to wrap a book or two from our own shelves and then give them to the other person, and then we're going to sit down and read our books straight through and it's going to be great fun.
ReplyDeleteAs always, these are such great questions, and I had a lot of fun answering them. :) Thanks for co-hosting the link-up! :D
I don't have a blog, but I love to write. Would you mind if I put my answers to the Beautiful People tag in the comments? :)
ReplyDeleteI did it, but the link box isn't working for me for some reason. :/ Here you go:
ReplyDeletehttp://elijahdavidauthor.blogspot.com/2016/03/beautiful-people-valentines-edition.html