note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Ahhh how awesome!!! That's so exciting! Congratulations, girl!!! :D
ReplyDeleteThat's great! I write a lot but I've never had the pleasure of finishing a novel...though I'm hoping to finish one this year (50,000 words so far).
ReplyDeleteyayyy!! fantastic job! that is a big accomplishment, I'm so proud of you friend! :)
ReplyDeletethe outfits have my vote...very cute =)
I, on the other hand, do not write well. I see it more as a chore than fun. unless I do it by my choice. yes, I'm the first born and stubborn. sad but true ;P
congrats once again!
love your friend,
Samarah♥
Congrats my dear!!! That's so awesome...
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xx,
Bleah
Yay!!!!! That's so awesome!!!!!! I'm so excited for you! :D I know what you mean about expecting jumping around the room. I was surprised to find that finishing a book is just as quiet as...just finishing. But we can still jump around in the blog comments!
ReplyDelete*confetti* *lots and lots of confetti* *and dance music* :D
*cheers* Congratulations!
ReplyDelete*sigh* Finishing a story is so rewarding. I recently finished one that was pretty easy to write, and I'm almost done with the second book to it (not novel length though), and the whole process is a bit different for each one I guess. Some are "I can't believe it!" and others leave me staring at that last word thinking "It's really over?"
Congrats again!
~ Chy
Yayayayayay!! Congrats!♥ xo.
ReplyDeleteOh, yay!! Congrats on your humongously awesome accomplishment! :)
ReplyDeleteCongratulations, Sky! You've finished a novel, and that is quite an accomplishment!
ReplyDeleteI do like to write, although I'm not sure if I consider myself a true "writer" yet. It may be due to that fact that I slaved away (yes, the whole blood, sweat, and tears thing) for 2 years on my first big book. In the end, it was 45k words. That was before I ever got into blogging. And it was definitely wwaaaayy before I found out that a novel could be created at 50k. I was young, and little did I know that if my story had stretched its pages with just 5000 more words, I would really have a major project finished. But I didn't know about novels & word counts, and I loved my story the way it was. So to this day, I have decided to keep it at 45k, and one day I'll write my first novel.
YAYAYAYAYAYAY!!! That's sooooooo exciting!! I'm so happy for you. Are you considering posting an excerpt or something?
ReplyDeleteAs for me, yeah, I've finished a book before. It was only 123 pages, I did it in August because I didn't have time for NaNo. I've done some others when I was little, it's fun to look back on them now!
Congratulations! Give yourself a treat!
Love,
iGirl
Woohoo! Congrats, Sky, on such a big accomplishment. =D
ReplyDelete*chants* publish the book publish the book publish the book!! Congratulations, Sky! Ohmylipsglossness that's such a great thing to be proud of. I finished all my ideas for my "14" novel, but I still have a LONG way to go before I finish it. I'm so glad you finished yours!! Yay! :))
ReplyDelete-Jocee <3
*throws confetti in the air*
ReplyDeleteYAYAY KYLIE!!!!!! It's so exciting that you finished the novel!!
And ha, I adore all of your character's outfits. (: Totally something I could see myself wearing. Well, except for the guys'....'cause that would be weird. ;)
~Lily
Replying to your comment. :) I agree with how you felt. I assumed I'd be off-the-wall crazy excited, but, really, it was just like, "Oh. Well. I'm done. That's...interesting." :)
ReplyDeleteHow to get your email address attached to your profile: Log into blogger, click on 'edit profile' (underneath your picture), then check 'show my email address' (the third row). At least, I'm pretty sure that's how it works. :)
Hehe, blobs of goo they are not...if you look at the "dark" parts instead of the light, you realize that it's a horizontal pic of a girl and guy about to kiss. But, seriously, it took me about two months to get that. :)
That is so exciting. Could you maybe possibly send it to me for critique? I love reading what you write :)
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