note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
He's adorable...in a really...manly way...
ReplyDeleteHaahaha, I love it.
And the BBC RH Sheriff is possibly my favorite villain ever. So I'd probably love yours.
ROFL. That was really awkward and embarrassing, so I'm glad someone got a kick out of it. xD That's pretty much me in real life. :P
DeleteYes! You most likely would. I personally really like my villain. He's awesome. And I really hope you get to read my novel someday! :) ♥
FANGIIIIIIIIIIRL HEEEERRRREEEEE!!!!
ReplyDeleteI was literally holding my breath until you mentioned him. And then, I had to refrain myself from making loud fangirl noises, as my whole family is asleep. :}
Ehehehehe, I want to meet this Rane of yours to see if I can join the fangirl parade!
ReplyDeleteGlad you're having fun on NaNo - I'm off to buddy you, if I haven't already! I'm spookofnight *grins*
1. You did an awesome job with this vlog Sky! I can't wait for your next one. ;)
ReplyDelete2. Rane has another fan girl
3. Robin Hood rocks and I am going to LOVE your villain.
4. Everytime I come to your blog I drool over how pretty your designs are.
YOU NANO PEOPLE ARE AMAZING.
ReplyDeleteMy best friend always does nano and I'm always like "...I could never do it." xD I LOVE WRITING FOREVER buuuut I'm horrible at writing under pressure. I think. Baha
Prayers that you feel better, girl!
&& Have fun writing!!
-Kate
So, I started reading your blog a couple of months ago after a random Google search led me here. (some times I like it when the internet doesn't give me what I'm actually looking for.)It's pretty awesome, so I've been checking it frequently ever since then.
ReplyDeleteFast forward to October when I thought about finally getting on the NaNo train but then decided not to. Two day's before NaNo started I saw the Vlog you did with Georgie (who incidentally reminds me of the main character in Revolution) Anyway, watched the video, decided I wanted to do NaNo after all, and signed up on the 30th of October without any idea of what I was going to write about. So, thank's for being awesome and just remember to keep using your blogging powers for good, and not for evil.