note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,
Love this post...very inspiring. And you're right, the music is glorius. (I personally love the cello theme.) So epic!
ReplyDeleteBrilliant! (Cellos rock!)
ReplyDeleteGAME OF THRONES!!! I'm a ridiculous fan of the books - love them, absolutely love them - and I agree, that theme is amazing. I also like the Dovahkiin theme from the Skyrim game, though I don't play it. Just makes me want to grab a sword and go and do some heroic stuff. That, or sit down at my computer and make my characters do that. That tends to work better.
ReplyDeleteAlso, that notebook. I want it because reasons.
Lovelovelove that song! It's been my favourite since I first heard a couple weeks ago, and it isn't very often when a song will stay on my favourites list for more than few days. It's just so tremendously wonderful :)
ReplyDelete~Nessima of Arda Nessimava
I love movie/t.v. show scores! I have to say some of my favourite are Little Women (1994) score and Sherlock Holmes (The Hans Zimmer one) score. Oh, and the Lion King. You should check them out if you like scores:)
ReplyDeleteOk. Love that song. I listened to it on repeat for almost all morning long. ^.^
ReplyDeleteOoh, that's so pretty. I love music. ♥
ReplyDeleteWhy oh why do they have the over-bright cello in the foreground of the theme? So typical of movie-music! Don't get me wrong, I love celli-- but the players get a little too cocky once in a while, and it doesn't help matters that they're widely respected as the most awesome instrument in the orchestra. Personally, I don't think this is quite true, but what can you do? Their egos refuse to deflate.
ReplyDeleteBut this is still some pretty cool music.
And then there was the cheesy cut-off at the end... I alternately love and hate soundtracks.
DeleteI'm not even two minutes into this video yet and I can only say I agree. Some heroic stories are begging to be written with music like this in mind! Aren't film/TV scores lovely?
ReplyDeleteVERY nice song! I now want to go write a sword battle, or, a chase through a forest on horses. Something, exciting!
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