note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
I'm going to do this a little later. I don't I even did the May/June edition! I can't remember.. I'll go check ;) :P
ReplyDeleteGreat questions! It's so hard to decided on whether or not I should do them for Charlotte, or Alex. I think I'll do both :))
-Jocee <3
I have a book I'm working on...is there some way I can attach it onto my blog (it's in a Word document) and then I could answer the questions?
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